Dear Spicey,
First off let me just stop and give you a hug because you need it. Really though just stop and be still. Know in your core that you are SO loved.
When you feel like you aren't crazy enough, loud enough, or the center of attention remember that it is okay and that's just how the Lord made you. He made you to be strong and it's a gift. Embrace that. It's an honor, really.
When you are running around like a chicken with your head cut off trying to be the best in everything, just chill out. Whether you want to be the ASB secretary, a semi decent tennis player, or who knows maybe even yearbook editor (or perhaps all three) remember to give yourself time to breathe. You need it, heck you deserve it! When the years go by and all the sudden you are walking across the stage on graduation day freaking out because in a few months you are about to leave for college, remember the ways the Lord has blessed you in high school cause girl it's by His grace you survived! Even though like they all say you met your best friends in college which is true, know some of your absolute best friends and sisters are the ones from high school. Love 'em they are the ones you don't have to explain yourself too, you'll appreciate that on the bad days.
And for a reality check. You have so much to learn. You think you know it all... I mean hello you can drive, you are practically the queen of Clarksville. But let people pour into you. You are still a little child, soak in every second of it because one day you will realize it's not half bad coming home to dinner every night, having your laundry done for you, and just hanging out with your mom on Saturdays running errands because one day you'll miss it.
The main things you need to know is that it's okay not to be perfect, that Christ in you makes you enough and when you wait expectantly on Him... He's gonna give you the desires of your heart and a lot more but it's all gonna be in His timing, even if that means not being #1 on the tennis team. He's still gonna bless you even though you feel like a failure, you aren't. Work hard at school, those women who are older than you trying to pour into you... girl listen to them. The truth, grace, and love they have to offer, it's the best. They have been where you are before. Love the people around you well because you might be that little light of Jesus to them. And girl let that light shine. Laugh until it hurts and be silly! It's okay to be weird and crazy. That weird part to you might not ever change.. so you just go on and embrace that too ;]
Oh and don't be afraid of adventures. You will learn to love them. Seriously, they will change your heart.
Keep on truckin girl. Keep on. The Lord's got you the whole way through.
