If you know me at all, you know I hate, do not like, despise, goodbye with most every fiber of my being. Seriously, even things I don't like I still get sad when I have to say bye, I'm kind of pathetic. People try to tell me all the time it's only see you later or we'll still talk all the time, whatever. Yeah, all of that is awesome but that's not what makes me sad. I'm confident in people, situations, and timing that it'll all be okay I have no doubt about it. What makes me sad is saying bye to the season. Walking out of my dorm room yesterday I was already a mess and I still had to get through two more goodbyes before I could finally be on my way home. When I was leaving the last goodbye (I act like goodbye is an event, but it really is. You plan them too don't you?!) I had tears sitting in my eyes, but never really cried though. I was sad, but at the same time I was so encouraged. I was sad that this season was ending, but I was encouraged about the next one whatever that may be. I got some of the most encouraging cards and words spoken to me yesterday that I was so not expecting. When I was finally heading out of Knoxville I texted my mom telling her I was headed that way. She said something back to the extent of "Good, you have lots and lots to be thankful for." I was driving and listening to the song "Break Every Chain" by Will Reagan and The United Pursuit Band (I would recommend if you don't know it) but some of the lines in that song that I love are "there is power in the name of Jesus" and "there's an army rising up" I have no idea why that stuck out to me so much in the car, but I kept thinking those things are so true.
I don't know what all of you are doing this summer, but the thing that has given me comfort the past twenty-four hours is knowing that there is an army with me in each season I say goodbye too, and a new one for the season I am entering. That there is power in the name of Jesus because that army is carrying His name and waiting expectantly on Him to lead them into the next season. So even though the past few days and the next several weeks to come will be full of goodbyes it gives me hope knowing that there is a whole army backing me up along the way and you too for that matter as we go on the next adventure.
I thought about my mom telling me I had lots to be thankful for this morning and she's really right. This past year I have been so ridiculously blessed. The people who have poured into me in the littlest ways have meant so much to me. Some were old friends and some were new, but they were part of the army Christ orchestrated for my life in this season. So as I tackle the mountain of stuff sitting in my basement, probably get sad all over again, and attempt to organize my life I know He's for me and that He's got that army backing me up and well that's just awesome.
With all of that said, goodbyes are still hard and probably always will be for me. So if I cry they are not all sad tears, but happy tears because of what you have meant to me. He's got you and He's got me the whole way through!
Side note! To all of you that have given me a front row seat to what God's doing in your life I just want to say thank you and that it is such an honor! A lot are going some where new this summer and some are staying at home but know that I can't wait to see what He does in you all. Each of us on different adventures no doubt, but all apart of the same army carrying His name. You all are gonna rock it! Psalm 27:13-14 "I will remain confident in this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord, be strong, and take heart. Wait for the Lord." and also Ephesians 6!
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