Does that make sense?

I learn best by listening, then processing verbally. Always have been that way, sometimes it's a blessing other times its a curse. Anytime I am talking to someone I often end the statement with "Does that make sense?" because so much makes sense in my head, but to the world I feel like its a foreign language.

I tell you this because I can tell people something but, half the time I am saying, writing, or typing it out to them is when it clicks in me. I can give a girl encouragement, but sometimes when I get done I sit there and think to myself "Who are you?" You just told that person to trust, give themselves grace, or maybe even reminded them of how awesome they are. All of those things are so true about everyone I talk too, all of them are huge blessings! But I could preach that to girls all day long and mean every word of it, but at the end of the day I sometimes sit there and have to ask myself the question "Sarah, Does that make sense?" I so often forget to put into action what I want other so badly to do. I want people to know how great they are, I want people to know how much grace the Lord gives us, I want people to know how beautiful messy is, I want people to know they are enough but do I even tell myself that stuff half the time?

I was talking to my best friend earlier. In our personalities we are very much opposite, but also very much same. Meaning I tend to be the emotional sap and she is more of the short to the point kind of girl. I tell you that because while talking today after every statement I made I literally wanted to look at her and say "Does that make sense or am I a complete lunatic?" I know she gets what I saying but she just says "yeah okay" after most statements (which works for her wonderfully, so yay for that),but while I know she gets it at the same time the irrational parts of me get tense because my crazy self starts to think but what if that didn't make sense! What if I really am a mad woman! I use that for example because it was recent, when I am talking to people I love interaction, I love hearing people's stories, or what they think because I learn best from that.

I had a bible study with my 5th grade girls yesterday and one of them said this "It's about remembering even though we might be small on the outside, we are big on the inside because we have Christ living in us." When she said that I sat there, and literally made her repeat it because it was so true! In all of those moments where I wonder does that make sense or I forget to tell myself the things I preach, it's just like what little Maddie said. We are so small on the outside because the flesh and world are eating us full of lies, but on the inside we are big. We are big because we have a big spirit in us who make it all make sense. In all the mess and confusion of life, we are big because we serve a God who gives us enough grace in the moments of life that don't make sense to let His big in us make it breathable.

So does that make sense? Does it make sense that we all learn and receive things differently? Does it make sense that for some people your life won't ever make sense? Does it make since that some people like green better than blue? Does anything ever really make sense? No, none of that makes since in our heads and it never will, it's okay to be slightly annoyed by that too, I think at least. What makes anything and everything make sense is the Spirit of Christ in you and it's the overflow of Him in your heart, your actions, and your words that make it make sense.